Today is not a special day, just an ordinary day with normal life.
But I just remember my father; just remember his weak body warm, just remember his eyes with pall colour.
How about you? What kind of father do you have? What is his characteristic? How is his life? If you have a chance in next life, will you willing to become his son / daughter? And call him Father?
I have a normal father with a normal life. Love his daughter and sons can care them so much although we are not good in wealth. He cares and loves us much. Within these few days, my memories full with my time with my father at my childhood.
Remember the time, when he took us to the river and swim at there. That kind of memories are unforgettable and can't get back, only can keep in memory and rewind again to keep my heart warm.
After grow up, I comes to know how hard the life is in our family condition. I now truly know that how they struggle to give us a good lives. In East region of the earth, the feeling about parents is not a weak feeling. Not a stranger heart. And also not so open minded. Although love so much deep, only keep in mind and rarely speak out and let our parents know.
Every second we passed in our childhood with our parents become our precious memory when we get old. But we just simply can't get back that golden times and make it real again :(
New Year just comes and goes and winter enters again. Just living in warmth of the old days. Passing and reaching the deepest of tenderness.
Last week, I got news that my father is not feeling well. All of a sudden I didn't know what to do. Far away from home, can't do anything. Being a son, I feel useless. The deep warm feeling inside my heart and memories remind me I should go back. However, sit in dark and cry in silent is the only thing I only can do now.
Now a week just passed by, living with a smiling mask behind is a crying face. No body cares and I also can't do anything. Whenever I called back he always says “Don’t get ill, eat well, sleep well and be careful. You live far away, and have no relatives. If you get ill and happen something, we can't do anything.”
But whatever he said like that, It feel hurt inside me. My father is not in good health and he got diabetes too. He has passed 2 times of his hard time in his health. Now this time I also not beside him. Deep hurt in heart, only can said "Yes father." to whatever he tell me to do while silently crying.
If you have a chance, take care of it. Time wait no man and Pass is pass can't get again. Now, I feel upset and I silently cry inside. I got no chance now. Must wait until next chance I get. When will that chance be?
Like Eminem said, "Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment Would you capture it or just let it slip?" and "The moment you own it, you better never let it go You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow This opportunity comes once in a lifetime"
I hope you all have better lives than me and don't lose every single chance you ever get. If you do, you will feel regret just like me.
Now where's your father? For me, I can only at far away and say him "I Love You Father!"